Little Lamb Rachel

Attention once given but now is blown away in the air

Effort used to be made but now you don’t see much

Once so cherished but now so neglected

Once you were the star but now you have dimmed

Once so full of hope & joy but now doubts & fear sets in

Once so hot but now so cold

What has gone wrong?

Withdrawl is the symptom of protecting oneself from getting hurt & upset..

Was packing some stuff when I came across my little pinkish princess notebook where I wrote these to God..

From the day I took a step

From the day my heart was touched

I know is going to change

It’s a miracle, O Lord

A brand new heart I have

A lease of new life

It’s all because of You

You gave me all these

So I live for You

Next one..

This is Your dwelling place

A place where love is found

A place where faith is renewed

This is Your dwelling place

A place where hurts are healed

A place where hearts are mended

My heart grows with worship

When I come near You

My dreams & desires are placed in Your hands

Another One…

In Your presence

Where faith’s strengthened

In Your presence

Where love is found

In Your presence

Where hope is renewed

In Your presence

Where I long to be

Didn’t know that people wld ever think that I’m naggy..Do u think I enjoy being naggy? I’m not that old yet..Why do I have to repeat things again & again? Do u think I enjoy doing it? If I can & have a choice, I rather not do it..The comment abt me being naggy has never really crossed my mind..Should i be happy or sad over it? Guess it depends on the source it came from..

I like to do self evaluation of my life,especially when things are down & not happening the way I hope they will or when comments are made or when I’m inspired by His words or when events happen,etc,etc…Knowing to evaluate ourself is a good channel for us to think thru’ our life,personality,deeds,actions,speech,etc,etc..

Last week was a super lousy & bad week for me..The things that I planned for didnt happen..& worst, people were not excited at all..Seems like I’m the only crazy & childish person that went “ga ga” over it..What a joke it was..

When bad things come,they will all come at one shot..It seems that you cant handle it & wants to give up alrdy..But I gota still tell myself that God will never give me smthing or let me go thru smthg that I cant handle cos’ He will give me His strength & His grace is sufficient..Was it easy? Of course, NOT…I feel like crying big buckets..But what can I do even if my tears fill the ocean?

I hve been asking myself these questions:

“Have I done enough?”

“What have I not done?”

“I’m telling the truth & the truth hurts,but why was the response in such a manner?”

“Are ur very scared of me?”

“Have your come to a place of also knowing me as an individual?”

“What do I need to do to inspire,challenge,motivate?”

“What can I do to see revivial?”

I need that still small voice & was reminded of this song ..

“When the oceans rise & thunders roar

I will soar with You above the storm

Father,You are King over the flood

I will be still & know You’re God”

God,what can I do?

remembered since my days of writing composition & essays in seconday/JC, we have been taught always to ask the “4Ws & 1H”..(What,Where,When,Why,How)

God gives us a brain not to leave it at home when we go out of the hse…When was the last time we stop & ask ourselves the 4Ws & 1H? Have we let the business of life hit us & live our life just as it is or how circumstances lead us?When was the last time we evaluated ourself,our behaviour,our deeds & words at home or work or our relationship with others?

Many a times we want breakthru in our life but yet, we keep doing the same thing again & again,even when it does not seem to bring forth any results or effectiveness..Then,we can still grumble & say “I hv done so much but I’m not achieving any results”…Maybe is time to evaluate ourself,seriously sit down & ask ourself the 4Ws & 1H..

What is your strength & weakness?What do you want to see yourself achieving?How are u going to measure your success?What kind of image do you want to portray? When u hear the word of God,how are u going to apply it?

My ZS shared with us fm James1:25 - “But he who looks into the perfect law of liberty and continues in it,and is not a forgetful hearer but a doer of the work,this one will be blessed in what he does.” In layman terms,you will be liberated everytime u hear,look into His word & apply the word of God,u will be blessed..

Is time for me to start asking questions,ponder,put on my thinking cap & search for the answers that I’m looking for in the areas that I need & want a breakthru’..