Wonder why I didn’t blog lately…Not becos’ my comp is down..but i have been rather busy at work since last wk..Tks to some super duper attractive rates that the bank offered,the volume just suddenly surge up & we are short-handed..Plus,I have a super irritating colleague who can’t fit into this job fit & he is dragging the whole team down in terms of productivity & efficiency..Yet,he doesn’t realize his own problem despite the counseling,reaching out & advice that me & my boss have given..It is the same problem that he faced in his previous department..It is the same old problem that he face here too..It is not the right job fit for him..
Oh gosh…things are so bad that my boss got to asked him to look for alternatives & for other places within the bank as she cannot afford to keep him in the team..If a clerical staff can do the same function as him & make lesser mistakes,doesn’t it shows something?? He still don’t get it..I almost vomited blood..Everyday,I have to endure the stupidity & careless mistakes that he does..I will just amend whatever mistakes that he does & do it on my own (he is not helping at all) & keep bottling it until my chest gets to tight & I can’t breath (with the surge in volume some more)..
So stressed at work..Everyday is rush,rush,rush..All the sales will say their cases are urgent,urgent,urgent..My back hurts,my neck is stiff,my shoulders are stiff & aching..I can feel the ache & tension on these areas..When can i go for my massage?
Not only that..Feel so stressed in ministry..Numbers,numbers??
We are all in a ministry to find a need & meet the need,find a hurt & heal the hurt..But sometimes,it becomes so numberish..Of course,I know growth is in the will of God..But there is also a season of ploughing..The farmers also take mths to sow their seeds b4 the harvest come..If I have a choice,do u think I want to stagnate? Of course not..
What must we do until all the bombing stop? We got no faith? We are not working hard enough? We make safe decisions in our life,hence,we also don’t see much breakthru? We don’t disciple our members enough? What is the definition of discipleship then? Then,why always tell us that we are just volunteers serving God as leaders?
We serve Him becos’ we love Him..We know He has called us..
Is demoralising to keep hearing negative things abt us week after week..Some words make us feel like we are the most incompetent leaders & we might as well step down..
God..Help me overcome this period of challenges & to continue handling with a great attitude..Is not easy but Holy Spiritmcome & enpower me..Give me the extra grace of God..
