31 January 2007
· Filed under Ministry
Season of Connection:
-A season that I need to connect & reconnnect with my sheeps.
-A season that I need to know them better (not just their likes,dislikes,etc…but knowing them by the spirit & in the spirit)
-A season that I need to be able to speak into their life,where mindsets are changed,values are shaped,characters are moulded,fire & passion for God is deeper.
-A season that I need to be connected to the Holy Spirit even closer,a bond that carries me through 2007.
Is tiring to start all over again…But I have to do it..I need to go back to the old,familiar caring system when I first stepped into the house of God.
They are my sheeps who are placed under my care.I have to be the shepherd who
guides,directs,encourages,motivates,inspires,challenges them to step into their own destiny & live out a life of dreams and possibilities.
Season of Ploughing:
-A season that I need to build & strengthen the Cg.
-A season that we need to unite our hearts & plough together for the revivial & miracle that the Cg needs.
-A season that we have to work very hard,plough through to see souls added into the Cg.
-A season that I need everyone to be very focus on evangelism for the next 6 mths.
-A season that I need everyone to be strong & sharp in their own spiritual life.
-A season that we need to step out of the comfort zone & contribute to the Cg.
-A season that we cannot allow the devil to laugh or scorn at us.
No one likes the ploughing season & I absolutely hate it.
But success & rewards do not come without any hard work.
Much as I hate to accept the fact that the Cg is in a crisis,I cannot deny it.
This is the truth & the truth hurts.
Much as I’m disappointed & discouraged, I need to snap out of the wallowing in self-pity,pulled myself up,lay down all my struggles at the cross & continue to fight this battle.
If I don’t fight it,who will?
24 January 2007
· Filed under Reflections
I have this fetish for gifts that are nicely wrapped or things that have very nice,attractive or interesting packaging (esp those from Japan) & I have a habit of collecting nice shopping bags..But things that look good on the outside may not be that fantastic on the inside..Sometimes,when we look at a matter,situation,problem,crisis,etc…things may not seem as it is…
Sometimes,we read too much or think too much about the comments or opinions that people have about us.
Sometimes,we do not even use our brain to think & just brushed it aside.
Sometimes,we perceive an idea,thought,feeling or conclusion by what we see & hear from our senses.
Sometimes,the comments or opinions that we hear can hurt us & bruise our ego & self-esteem.
Then one day,someone comes along & share with you another side of the story.
That is when you also begin to ponder & wonder.
It takes a while before we can embrace this side of the story.
What does it take to really know the heartbeat of another person?
Knowing a person requires your heart to be connected to that person’s heart.
It is not about knowing the likes,dislikes,preferences about that person..
It is the heart that matters,the motivation,the drive that propels you to be involved in that person’s life.
The heart of the matter is the matter of the heart.
Human beings are complex.
Relating to people is an art that all should learn and be great masters at it.
20 January 2007
· Filed under Reflections
Have u ever been in a position that u feel trapped in between your peers & your “supervisor”?
Well,on countless times,I have been caught in such situation & I really hated it..
Who wants to be the bad guy? I’m sure all of us want to be the good & nice person that pleases everyone..But sometimes,we don’t have a choice..
On one hand,u hope to give justification for your peers,on the other hand,there is instruction that is given from the top..What choice do I have?
I did not choose to do all these out of my own accord..I cannot remember exactly how & when it became my duty to be the administrator for everybody..Sometimes,I do have the feeling of being like the lamb that is led to slaughter..Who would know & understand that kind of grilling & blasting that I received sometimes? Questions that I do not have the answers & I cannot speak for all.It is not an easy & likeable job to do.
What can I say even when I got to keep waiting & send reminder? If I have any slightest grumbling or nagging,will people think that “I am not willing to do it”? Or ???
This is a job that most people do not like to do..
15 January 2007
· Filed under Daily Life
Daughter:I like this sofa & this setting,so cute & modern.
Mummy:Next time,when u get married,u can design your home in the way u like lor.
Daughter:Yah lah…But getting married is so expensive,gota save up lor..No money,how to get married..Is not as if we earn alot & there are also bills to take care of..
Mummy:Will his parents support both of your? Did they sponsor the brother when he got married?
Daughter:Huh? I don’t know lah and we don’t ask this kind of question wan lah..Where got pple so thick-skinned go ask parents for $$ when u want to get married?This is so paiseh..Can u imagine u want to get married & u don’t have enough $ & asked parents for it? It never crossed my mind..I mean if parents want to bless us on their own accord,that’s another story..
Mummy:But like what your father says,”is not as if both of you have been working for a long time & things are so expensive..Not like last time,during our generation”..Your father says if your need the money & if we have the means,then we will give & help your..
Don’t you think the above conversation carries alot of love & warmth parents feel for their children?
How much more our perfect Daddy in Heaven cares about us, each & every one of us as individuals? He loved us so much that the bible says that even our hair is counted..
When we see the love and goodness of our earthly parents,we are thankful & grateful to them..
When our Heavenly Father embraces & accepts us just the way we are,shouldn’t we be even more thankful & grateful to Him?
If there is any one reason you shld be thankful to Him,you can thank Him for the very breath that you are breathing now…
11 January 2007
· Filed under Daily Life
It’s been a long while since I talked on the phone for a long time (i.e. > 1hr)..In my mum’s dialect,they like to call it “cooking telephone porridge”..I was talking to my helper for about 2.5 hrs just last nite (while eating my dinner & talking at the same time & not forgetting that I hvnt bathe)..But it was time well spent..
I realised that my helper & I always like to talk & discuss abt serious issues or issues that are thought provoking,when in actual fact,we are just sharing our life as an individual,the struggles,challenges,things that we go thru’,our fears,thoughts & feelings,etc..Even when I give her bs for the whole of 2006,it always stretched beyond 2 hrs..I do not just give her the information that is needed but we will ususally sidetracked alittle & discuss abt other things…It is the sharing & me being real to her that I felt really draw her close to me to share her inner thoughts & feelings (besides the fact that she needs to be accountable to me as a cg mbr)..
While I was writing this,it brought to my rememberance abt a sharing session that I had with one of my close friend..I remember we were in a chalet & on the last nite,there were only 2 of us left from our cg.I can’t remember the exact contents of the sharing,we probably talked abt family,our struggles,weakness,fears,etc..In the end,both of us end up crying & I think we prob cried ourselves to sleep..But that one nite of sharing brought us to a deeper level of understanding & laid a strong foundation in our friendship till this day..We can just opened up & bare our heart & soul to each other..We may be in different seasons of our life now at the moment (is motherhood for her) but there is no boundary or obstacles to giving each other that time & space when a listening ear is needed..
I remembered that I enjoyed talking on the phone since I was a teenager..Despite the fact that I see my friends in school almost everyday,we can still talk on the phone at nite..There are nites that I can talked till the wee hours in the morning..I remembered my parents (esp my mum) always nagging at me to go to bed..
But as I grow older & stepping out to work,I realised that the time spent on talking on the phone with friends seems to have whine off..Is it because we have become busier,carry more responsibility,or think that “everyone is also busy”,etc,etc?
Although we have progressed to meeting up & chatting over a drink at Starbucks,etc..Somehow or rather,I do miss that “cooking telephone porridge”..
5 January 2007
· Filed under Reflections
In my earlier post under “The Nite”,I wrote that I was one of the emcee for that event..My colleagues who came for the event said that they have never realised that I can be so “ra ra” & loud…They saw a different me (cos’ i’m very serious at work,hahaha)..
They felt that the whole event was quite entertaining (am i supposed to take it as a compliment or ??)..They said next time I can go find part-time job in hosting..
Hmmm…So,maybe I do have some undiscovered talent in this area? (wahahaha) Pls don’t puke,ok? At least,in my own land & world,that is not too bad a dream to think about..
4 January 2007
· Filed under Daily Life
After the hectic weeks of Xmas,Thanksgiving & Year End Svc,I seriously needed a break to recharge my batteries..It was physically tiring..Boy,am I glad to be on leave fm 29th Dec onwards..
On 29th,I basically slept thru’ the whole morning & only woke up at 12+ when the afternoon sun is shining high in the sky..(sounds like the Chinese saying?)Had a late lunch that my dad bought for me.. (sidetrack alittle,my daddy buys breakfast for me every sat & on those wkdays that i’m on leave,am I pampered or what?)
I spent some time unwrapping those Xmas gifts & did some minor spring cleaning to the house like vacuuming & mopping the floor,changing bedsheets for all my family mbrs,wiping the dust off all the furniture..I feel good after doing all that..
Come Sat,I spent a good 2-3 hrs packing my stuff,throwing redudant things & arranging all my accessories..I was shocked to find that I actually have 15 bracelets,>20 necklaces & >30 pairs of earrings..Didnt know that I have such a “huge” collection,cleaning & polishing all the silver accessories did take me quite a bit of time..
Finally after all the resting & recharging,it feels good to be back at work today..Frankly speaking,I do look alittle forward to going back to the office (though there are days that I do dragged myself to work)..Somehow or rather,I feel that time passes faster,I feel more productive & effective (Is this what God meant by Adam working hard in the Garden of Eden?Hmmm)..
All things said & done,the next thing that I must do is to sit down,think thru’ my goals & resolutions in all aspects for my life for 2007! Whatever has happened in 2006 is already a fact & there is no way that I can turn back the clock..I can either choose to live in regret & be like a fool or I can choose to learn from them, move on & be like a wise man..I choose the latter.
