Archive for October, 2007

Misunderstood & unfairness

Have anyone told you that life can be a misunderstanding or a tinge of unfairness sometimes?

Sometimes,you just feel that things are just blasted and thrown into your face & you don’t have the chance to explain yourself. Is not explaining to justify myself but I just want to make things clear & tell the other party that I did try my best & I am doing something.

But the sad thing is even when you want to explain,you still get “shoot” & being told that you are arrogant & always trying to justify yourself. So,at the end of the day,what’s the point in explaining? Then,I rather keep quiet. But at the same time,feeling sorry for myself & being upset,angry & unhappy for the rest of the day.

Yes,certain things is my fault. I apologise for it but there are just some things & comments that I really feel that is unfair. But what’s the point? I’m sick & tired of it.

Joyce Meyer said that she “repairs” her temple by going for spa…What do you do when your soul hurts? How can I repair my own soul & emotions? How can I minister to people when my own soul & emotions hurts?

Yes,much as I am a leader, I am also Jesus sheep..

I have never wanted to do it from day one. I am not in it for the fame,power or recognition. Instead what I received is a heavy reponsibility of lifes in my hands,heartaches,stress,…I’m not saying that there is no positive aspects but just that at this point of time,the negative is stronger than the positive.

Now is October 2007.Can I really endure & bash through till next Oct? I seriously wonder…

Comments (2) »

Searching & searching

I said in my earlier post that I am on the search for bridal package..

You never understand how tired it can be until you try out yourself.I’ve been to several bridal shops already & I think I have more or less decided which place I want to go with.Friends have asked me to shop for a few more but I think it’s enough already cos’ it’s really quite tiring to go from one shop to another & having to keep trying the gowns again & again..Plus,I have already found one piece that I really liked alot.
So,my darling & I have decided “the shop” we want to take my gown. :)

Next stop is our flat..As you may know,with the upswing in property market,it is also affecting the public housing (where it was once deemed to be something that everyone can afford).
BUT,we have been unsuccessful in getting any flats since our first attempt in applying in Feb this year.

We went for the balloting in Bedok in Feb but due to over demand & limited supply,we weren’t even given any Q number.Then,we tried for Sengkang/Punggol area in June,though we were given a Q # but it was so far behind that by the time our Q comes,we were only left with flats that are only going to be ready in 2011 or 2012 & they are on the 2nd level (whc we are not keen at all).Then,we tried for the mature estate in Aug 07 & our Q number was also so far behind that there wasn’t much choice when our turn came.We can’t wait for those build-to-order flats as they are only going to be ready in 2011.Now,we have just applied for those under north-west zone (and we hope to get a earlier Q number)..And they aren’t new flats but rather,they are repurchased flats that are sold back to HDB.Those in Yishun are almost 20 yrs old.Well,what choice do we have now?

So,after visiting bridal shops last sat,I basically had a good tour in Yishun cos we went to all the different units to check out (we can only see the exterior only) to have a feel of how they look.

We tried going for resale flats but everyone is selling above valuation & where on earth are we going to fork out the difference in purchase price & valuation by cash?Unfortunately,the areas that are near either of our parents are all so expensive (i life in town area & he lives in clementi area)…

Yes,that’s so pathetic & sad..On on hand,the govt is trying to encourage us to get married & stay near our parents but on the other hand,how can young couple fork out so much cash? Unless you tell me that the CPF grant can be used to pay for the difference.But I guess that’s fat hope..

I didnt expect to write that much but really,just want to express my frustration over this flat thing..Is really a sellers’ market..That’s nothing for young couple like us to gain anything..

The next few months will be flat hunting for us..

The good side of this flat hunting is the process where both of us are so focused & committed to get our own place..Like what pastor always say,is not the destination sometimes but the journey..Though in our case,the destination is important too..but I like the feeling of us getting together & sourcing for our home & the different ideas that we have in designing & calling it ours..Sometimes,the harder we search & try to get something,the more we will cherish it..

No comment »

On the hunt

Last sat,I visited 3 bridal shops & tried almost 8 pieces of gown..I started at 2pm,met my friend for lunch & was at the first bridal shop at 3pm..I was very tired by the time it was 6pm..I still had to go home for dinner before rushing off for a concert.

Just in case you are wondering why my boyfriend wasn’t with me - he works on sat & only has 1 sat off (poor thing,right?)…

Still,I found 3 pieces that I like & the one I like most happen to be the most expensive..I lost my nokia cable,so unable to load the pic here.. :(
Well,I have yet to decide cos’ I be going to visit another few bridal shops this sat & this time round,my darling is going with me.. :)

We have also met our wedding coordinator on mon night to discuss the wedding..Fm now till yr end,I’m on the hunt for bridal gowns,bridal packages,makeup,etc,etc,etc..
We have decided to hold our matrimony cum wedding lunch at Legends@Fort Canning Park. Heard that is a lovely place & I like it when I saw the pics on Internet..I have yet to visit the place though,will do that either end of this month or early next month..

We need to work out the budget & costs for the bridal package..I simply do not like those traditional photo album where is so “Taiwanese” style & they always wear gowns,evening gowns,different costumes..No offences but I find them too “cheena mama”..Hence,my initial plan was to rent my wedding gown for the shoot & actual day as I have a ex cg mbr who has his own shop,providing bridal shoot services & I like his style + I can work well with him..

We will need to confirm our ROM date,bridal package (this includes lots of things like gown,photo shoots,car deco,corsages for families,makeup,etc) & lunch package by end Dec.
From now till Dec,I be super busy with work,ministry,preparation of wedding..But thank God for a good wedding coordinator & friends..

I have already found someone to design & print the invites,someone to source for songs to be played during march-in/marchout & throughout the entire event..Friends have also given my their sources for talented people who do photo shoots..

So,if you have any ideas for deco or deals about bridal package,pls feel free to drop me a buzz in my blog..

No comment »