“I woke up this morning,feeling kinda blue…I dragged my feet across the room…”
Yes,this is opening line of Corrine May’s song - Angel in Disguise.
But this was how I felt this morning…I have a strong reluctance of not wanting to go to office.I just feel so suffocated at work.So many cases but so few manpower…I don’t even have time to breathe.
I nearly burst out crying due to the immense pressure & stress in the late afternoon.But I keep telling myself, “No,Rachel..you don’t let your tears flow in the office..Come on,be strong & bite the bullet & pull thru it…”
Today is the 3rd day that I didn’t eat lunch - cos I was simply too pissed,angry & not in the mood to eat.I rather go hungry…On the other hand,I asked myself, “Who will pity me if I really go hungry & fall sick?” The answer - NO ONE. Maybe subconsciously,probably,I was secretly hoping to fall sick,then I can report MC & not face the work for a day..But then,no one will cover me either since we are so short-handed now.It will still be back to square one.
The pressure is so bad that I have the sudden “chong dong” to write a resignation letter.Even though I have been thru the price war & the boom of the property mkt last year.I just felt that this time round,my fighting spirit is gone & there is no longer any motivation for me to want to stay OT & finished up the cases..Why? U may ask.. I always tell my mbrs that work will never be finished no matter how many OT u worked & we need to live a balanced life..The second reason is because there is no longer any appreciation being lavished, not that there used to be anyway…
Is a super BLUE MONDAY for me…And I don’t know how long can I take it…
