29 September 2008
· Filed under Ministry, Thoughts & Reflections
Yes… I’m tired running after numbers every week & having to explain and account why I’m not hitting my target, why my cg is not growing, why my members are not reaching out, why there are no friends, etc, etc…
Although I know that growth is in the heart of pst but I just can’t help but feel that every week,we seems to be just trying to hit our target & is numbers,numbers & numbers. Though we say that is the souls that we want but have we lost the focus when chasing our numbers?
What’s more, I’m only given 3 more months to grow my cg & prove my capacity & ability in leading a cg. While I do not want to ’stress’ my members, I’m also running out of ideas on the things that we can do to engage the people. I don’t now & I can’t feel that my members are in it together with me. Do I really have to tell them the hard truth that the group will face disbandment if we don’t grow in 3 months (like what other leaders did)?
I do not know what else I can do. Things that I suggest to my members, sometimes, I also feel that they don’t do it. When I say is an evangelistic Cg, I don’t see or hear my connect grp leaders getting back to me about any friends or what they plan to do in their own connect grps. It seems that everyone is just so busy with their own lives & too busy to care about the needs of others. Have all of us taken a moment & do a check on our heart?
Maybe like what my ZS said, we all don’t have the capacity to grow our cg & we are easily defeated. Yeah,maybe that’s the truth & I admit that lack of faith for growth in CG is one of my weakness. And maybe that’s why I still can’t breakthrough out of that.
But beyond the lack of faith, I need my members to rise up, sense the urgency, build the unity & love in the CG and not lead individualistic lives. I need to know that they are also working together with me, ploughing through & working on their friends & families, plundering hell & populating heaven – all these, I don’t sense it all all.
So,my battery is running low & I don’t know how long I will sustain.
26 September 2008
· Filed under Daily Life, Relationship
After one whole year of futile application with HDB at the different launches since last year, Weng and I have finally managed to get a permanent place to live and stay. Some of you may know that my current place at Punggol is just temporary, my member offered to us out of love and goodwill.
We finally placed the option fee last night after our CG ended. Thank God that we also managed to bring down the cash over valuation and my papa is willing to help us cover that amount too. My MIL also told Weng that we can let her know if we don’t have enough money. Our close friends & CG members are all very happy for us.
Now,we just have to continue to pray that our HLE will go thru with HDB & our HDB loan will get approved.
God is good all the time and all the time God is good. I was just telling God that can this year BF be my biggest breakthru? Even before I pledge,God has already given me the desires of my heart. Even though I know that going forward,finances are going to be tight with the loans that are going to come,I still want to trust my God for provisions and blessings.
Although today there was another launch by HDB for areas at AMK,Duxton & even Kallang. But they are so limited and some are not even ready. There is still the feeling that the flat that we bought is a reasonable buy (after checking with a few people)…
We are really looking forward to design & renovate the place that we can truly call “Our Home”.. 
24 September 2008
· Filed under Daily Life, Ministry, Thoughts & Reflections
I’m not just stressed but is “triplelly stressed” (if there’s ever such a word)…
Having to worry whether is there a hse that I can go back to at nite…to having to grow my cg in the next 3 mths…to worrying abt hubby’s career…
It seems that is just one of those times when everything comes at one shot to cripple me…But a friend just said to me over the phone that is times like this that we need the peace of God & understands what the peaced of God is…
The day started with an awakening news that I may not even be able to stay temporary at my current place for 6 mths while I hunt for my own hse…What a way to start the day…Hving to remove valuables stuff & some of our personal belongings..
In the evening, my zs told a few of us that we hv only until end of the year to grow our CG,to get it from the red back on track again..What’s the problem? The mbrs are generally good & nice people but is evangelism a lifestyle for them? Are they really engaging the mktplace & making a difference? Are they really shining for the Lord? What abt the unity in the CG? – A question that bothered me again & again…What are all the older members who hv been ard in church doing? Are they influencing the younger ones or those from another church? Do they really carry the CHC DNA? I’m stressed,worried & running out of ideas how to grow the CG. It seems that I hv so much burdens & concerns but there is none whom I can openly share in the CG,for fear that they will feel stressed…It seems that I’m the only one who is running the race..
I will also wonder how hubby is coping at work..I know that it is a faith action that he hv a switch in career & though I will always support whatever he does & be his greatest cheerleader..But, sometimes, there will be this ringing voice at the back of your mind that you will worry about money & financial issues.. (Dear,if you are reading this, pls dont feel stressed,it is not the purpose of this blog)..
22 September 2008
· Filed under Daily Life, Thoughts & Reflections
I have been thinking & toying with the idea of setting up my own biz. I have never thought of being an entrepreneur but ever since I embarked on the journey of my wedding preparation,I realised that having a good wedding co-ordinator is so important. That prompted me to start thinking if I can create a service that can help other couples plan for their wedding.
Pastor always say that there are 3 major decisions that we make in life – the decision to follow Christ, the person we choose to marry & the church we want to be planted in. Since wedding is a big & important affair,it be great if there is someone who is willing to go the extra mile for you,assisting you in the planning,budgeting,sourcing around for materials,etc,etc…That will take a load of the couple.
Since I’m also pretty unhappy with my current job & it seems that all the banks that I would like to work in are all having crisis problem. Probably,is a good time to start this service & turn it into a biz. Plus,I’m now in the Singles Commitee. I think it helps that I’m not just planning for their Big Day but I can also offer counsel,etc…
Hubby & close friends will tell you that I’m that kind of person who likes “Ra-Ra” stuff cos of my personality…It helps that I also like to organize & plan PR stuff..
So,should I start doing some research & create a website soon?
21 September 2008
· Filed under Thoughts & Reflections, Writings
When I walked in the dark, You are there
When I walked in the light, You are there
Wherever I go, You’re with me
In the valley, You keep me
In the ocean, You lift me
In the good, You rejoice with me
You never let go of my hand
You hold on to me and believe in me
You are always there for me
20 September 2008
· Filed under Daily Life
I just have to write this…
During my wedding,it seems that I suddenly had a few more extra relatives becos’ we discovered that “so & so” is related to the Lim Family or the Low Family.
To start off,one of my mum’s friend happens to be the cousin of my father-in-law.
Then,Linus’s auntie happen to be related to one of the Low Family. (And to think that I always call him Kor Kor…)
My photographer for the day (Gary) happens to be the cousin of my secondary sch friend (Gary also but his surname is Yeo).
My female MC – Chocks happen to be the niece of my distant auntie.
Just yesterday,my colleague was telling me that one of my ex CG mbr – Franics is her primary school classmate.
Wow..that’s like 5 cases of “Ren Qing”…
Should I say that wedding time is also an opportunity for us to re-connect & discover our long-lost relatives and/or friends?
20 September 2008
· Filed under Daily Life
I’m a half Cantonese cos my mum is a Cantonese & like all Cantonese mums,I have been trained since young to drink & love soup. I can have dinner just by eating plain rice & a well-brewed soup. Like I said during my thank you speech during my wedding,I will defintely miss my mum’s soup.
Good thing is my MIL is also a Cantonese,there will always be soup for dinner. Dear dear will also try to go back home & collect the soup for me whenever he can go home for dinner on nites like Tue where I have my leaders meeting or sometimes when his cg is changed to Toa Payoh…So far,he has done it twice..(I prayed & hope that all the nice & sweet things that he does for me since our married life will continue forever… 
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19 September 2008
· Filed under Daily Life
The special treat of the day — Mac Sundae with Hot Fudge…
Yum.. Yum…
My colleague must be pretty stressed out & she asked if anyone love to hv an ice-cream..Tat’s so tempting..What’s more, we hv $20 voucher (FOC that was given by the vendor fm pur printer)…Why not?
Slurps…Slurps..Sundae with Hot Fudge is nice…
13 September 2008
· Filed under Relationship
Dear Dear & I decide to cook our dinner tonight…He was supposed to meet me at 615pm at tampines but he only managed to reach at 730pm due to some work issues…So there I was roaming & browsing at NTUC from 630pm onwards…
And I bumped into my God-Ma there. After shopping for all the stuff,I even bumped into my mum’s friend along the way to MRT to meet dear dear.. Then, we went back to the mall again as dear dear needed to get some electrical stuff I bumped into a friend of mine.. Talk abt coincidence…
So,we had a supper late dinner at 10+…Dear & I cooked together & it was fun..I thought dear did such a great job with omlette…Married life shouldn’t be just kept to the mundane, it should be a time & life of doing things together,going thru things together, encouraging each other,having fun together,etc,etc…
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12 September 2008
· Filed under Relationship
My dearie is so nice…I was just commenting on Wed morning when we woke up that the sunlight shines into our room & is quite glaring especially when the wind blows the curtain. I said that we need to clip the curtain to the grills & he did it the next morning before he left for work..
On Wed nite,we went to Ikea & Giant to get some stuff (vaccum cleaner,clothes rack to hang some of our clothes,etc) & he immediately get down to fixing all these items up…
I also said that the shower is alittle loose & he went to fix it yesterday night after we came back fm CG. While I was busy updating my CMS & Facebook,he also took down all the clothes from that we hv washed & hung to dry…
Dear Dear,well done & keep it up…
